I must be CRAZY!

Yesterday was a super crazy day I am guessing..
I do my normal routine work out of Plyometrics.. the Mother of all P90X right.. well then after dinner I am sitting on the computer lazin around and Steve says.. I am gonna do Legs and Back tonight.. wanna do it with me? Well I didn't realize he was joking and said SURE.. WTFreak???
I am on drugs??? well guess what.. I did it.. and today well my knees are reminding me of how crazy that was!!! They feel like they are about to bust off of my legs onto the floor.. that would not be good at all. :)
I didn't do all of the back work because I have shoulders and arms today and will get plenty of work doing that. I am really Bringing it this Phase.. I want to get in great shape and be the best I can.. I want to have a body I am comfortable with and love to look at .. I am getting there but I have a ways to go to get to my goal.
Speaking of goals.. My original goal was to lose 25-30lbs but now I am more interested in toning up and gaining muscle (not too much) but the weight isn't as important any more.. I do like seeing the numbers go down but it doesn't break me when I don't see a movement. I measure tomorrow and I am eager and anxious to see the results.. I am fairly sure I lost a few inches in my chest area because I have to use the 1st (inner) hooks on my bra LOL and I have always been on the middle or last one so this is quite an accomplishment for me seeing that my chest area is one of my most "PROBLEM" areas mentally. I think I have a few normal Problems spots just like most women.. Chest, Butt and thighs.. but I am getting them in shape slowly but surely.. "THUMBS UP"

"If we all did the things we are capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves." ~ Thomas Edison

Phase III starts TODAY!

I am really gonna BRING IT this phase.. it is the last one for this round of P90X and I want to show off what I have gained so far and gain more.. so I have about 28 days of HARD CORE work ahead of me starting TODAY..
I have Chest and Back today and I am pumped. I am a little bummed that I have to do my work out at home because the work gym is still closed arrghh.. because I can't do the actual pull ups at home.. I only have a pull up bar at home and I am not strong enough (YET) to do unassisted pulls ups.. so I'll have to make due with the bands...
I will be taking my current measurements on Saturday 08/28.. I am super excited to see the results of that. I know I have lost 8lbs total since starting and I have to have lost some inches because my clothes fit so loosely now! YAHH
I would like to drop about 25lbs but I know gaining muscle will cause a plateau in my weight loss and I can deal with that...
Wish me luck with this Phase.. I have done all of the discs now so I know what to expect.. know I have to see what I have INSIDE!

"There is only one way to succeed in anything and that is to give everything." ~ Vince Lombardi

Another Pound down!!

Yeah baby.. I have total weight loss of 8lbs so far.. I can't believe it.. well I should since I am working my butt off .. literally I guess haha..
I start Phase III of P90X on Wednesday.. I can't believe I have made it this far.. I have about 35 days left.. sounds like a long time but it really isn't once you get started on it..
I keep reading my last post about FOOD and it motivates me to be strong and not let it beat me.. and I think I am doing great..
Well I think that I am really going to bust it out this next Phase.. just to see what I got and what results I can get.. I have been adding more ab work and it is starting to show.. I hope to have a 6pk within the next few months.. finger's X'd... I know I can do this!!

Victory belongs to the most persevering!! ~ Napoleon

ARRRGGGHH FOOD!!

Why oh WHY is food so demanding.. my mind is trying to be weak and I refuse to let it. I have so much going on right now and I just want to forget about FOOD.. why am I hungry all the darn time? I don't want to eat yet my tummy is growling and my head is hurting..
I need something to help curb this "THING" to tame this "THING".
I am not a drug person and I have never considered myself being of addictive personality but damn this is so overwhelming. I am basically a hypocrite.. I tell people all day. "It is a mind thing, you can control it" but in reality I am struggling with it myself..

FOOD is the devil and I am going to resist it.. I will WIN, I am a WINNER, I can overcome this.. I am strong, I am brave and I am WOMAN..
I will not let food run my life.. I will find a solution! GUM, Gum is the solution.. yes!!!

"The indispensable first step in getting the things you want out of life is this: decide what you want" ~ Ben Stein

Terrible Choices

Why must I make terrible food choices??? I am just HUNGRY.. I hate this feeling.. I hate that I am depending on something like FOOD to complete me..
My tummy hurts.. I am HUNGRY..
Today I thought I was doing good.. I got a Chick-fil-a Chargrilled Chicken Breast only .. no bread or anything.. so then I come back to work and think "Hmm I'll go get some veggies from the crapoteria" so I go to get some and guess what .. they have Fried Okra (totally love), Potatoes O'Brien, and corn and peas (EWWWW) so with my choices I get the Okra and Potatoes.. well then I get the 3rd degree from Steve and end up only eating about 1/2 cup of the okra and maybe 2 slices of the potatoes.. Steve resigned as my coach because I ate the Okra... He suggested I should have gotten a salad instead of the okra..well I just don't like salad that much and it cost an arm and a leg down there anyway... I just don't understand why I am hungry all the time... why can't I eat a little something, be happy and go on... I normally eat about every 2 hours but it just doesn't always hack it.. What can I do??? I am pleading and begging for help.

To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all. ~ Oscar Wilde

I need help!

I think I really need FOOD help.. now I just had a very healthy and great lunch but I just feel like I need more help because I am HUNGRY all the darn time.. I hate that feeling and I am not sure if I am truly hungry or just think I am .. so confusing.. why does food have this much control over me?
So far today I have had this:
Breakfast
Frosted Mini-Wheats cereal with 1 cup of skim milk
1 cup of organic seedless watermelon chunks
1 cup of low acid, pulp free OJ

Snack
Tomato & Basil Chips (about 12 chips)
8oz water

Lunch
Veggie Scrambler (2 egg whites, fresh broccoli, red onion, sweet peppers, tomato, spinach, fat free mozzarella cheese, fat free sour cream, salsa, and 1 Tbsp bacon bit pieces)
1 cup of organic seedless watermelon chunks
16oz water

Snack
6 Reduced Fat Nilla Waffers
Chocolate Muscle Milk

I should have left out the chips and nilla waffers right? See I know I just can't do.. WHY???

Still Plugging along

I am still plugging along with the P90X program and am currently on Phase II Week 3 Day 2.. the Day 1 work out Chest, Shoulders and Triceps is a KILLER but I am getting better at it and stronger. I am doing my push ups on my knees still but I am going down further and can do more reps. Last night while having to do my work out at HOME since stupid HR decided to shut our gym at work down temporarily to determine if they can budget in repairs and reopen it.. arrghh but anyway.. So I was doing my work out at home in the back room and after the 5th or 6th set of push ups.. my knee was burning I look down and WOW my skin was all smudged away.. I got carpet burn OUCH... but I just got out my Yoga mat and finished up strong..
I am starting to crap out on the diet part and that bothers me.. I have been so good for so long and I know what I want out of this and that it is a life style change.. why can I not just stick with it.. I mean I am not eating cheese burgers and fries but I am drinking less water now and I am having an occasional small chocolate bar (miniature). I know it adds up.. what the hello am I thinking.. I have to start putting away the short term instant gratification stuff and get with the program..
I should have started with the P90X Nutrition Program and stuck with it.. I think I am going to try to find it and start using it.
Well next week sometime I will be taking my 60 day measurements and stats.. wish me luck

This One Step - choosing a goal and staying to it - changes everything. ~ Scott Reed